Oops...

In accident, my friend tag me a song. 'Cry' form Rihana.

I listen to it. I opened another tab. I saw the bday boy's album. His bday. I saw their photos. Yea. Is "THEIR" photo. I was not there, that's why I am not in the album.

Suddenly I can feel my tear. It feels like the last time about my past. And my roommate is beside me, I don't wanna cry.

"Girl with the broken heart."__Cry from Rihana.

Yea. I am. Yea. I will stay strong. ='(

What the hell!

Why things that I don't really like keep on happening? I try to stand strong, please don't ever shoot me, I will fall seriously.

Today should be my best day. It was. But ended up? Like 'what the f**k'

Today we handed in our assignment 1 and studio journal as well as show our lecturer the assignment 2 progress. Why I say it was good day for me? Because my critical lecturer praised me! She did! I was not dreaming! 1st time for almost the sem 2. I'm so happy! She said 'Ai Ying, well done this time.' OMG! I almost feel like jumping up and down and up and down. I straight away call my mom~ =D It should be my best day ever! IT SHOULD

Another happy thing was, my friend said he is lazy to drive, and leave it to me! What made me excited was, his car is new! 2 weeks new! MyVi 1.5! And it's auto car! 1st time I drive auto car. Not bad. *ps: I even drive better than he does. =P

What turn me down? I don't feel like suitable to say it this way. I wanna sound it out but not to offend anyone. Today is one of my friends' birthday. We planned to give him a little surprise. I drove, bring them to buy cake and try to hide it from the bday boy. After all, we were having lunch happily. Suddenly, I have to go. So, that cake which I took them to buy, I do not tasted it, I don't even know what was it.

They started to comment on the bday boy's status in Facebook. I jumped in and mentioned that I missed that cake. But no one seems like care about me. They all are in their own world. That 'world' definitely happened after I leave. They all just ignored it.

I hate to be ignored. I really hate. *ps: Sociology term_out group. As I am typing these things here, I think am I too sensitive? In fact, yes. I know. I am too sensitive. But can't blame it on me. I have a terrible memory for my friendship. And it follows me forever! That's why I so sensitive about it. Sorry~ I shouldn't.

Again, I will try to stay strong.

What to do now? Just to think the positive thing. Like:

leaving to Melaka (although I do not have form to play tournament at all)

they believe me and let me play single (ONLY, I want double too =( )

lecturer praised me

can skip classes (but I have assignmentsss like hill to be done within 2 weeks)

Alright. Think positively girl. And also, I miss my boy~ =/

The Unfair World

So many bad news is being told to me. And all of it really unfair!

Feel like wanna mention here, but do not want to offend any one.

SO?

I swallow it myself.

THEN?

Stay strong.

I have known the world is never fair.

I should have accepted this long time ago.

But plenty of it happen to me, please forgive me if I couldn't accept it these in short.

I will try to stay strong, I will try my best on everything I gonna do. NOPE! I will DO my BEST on everything. I will try to accept what is unfair to me. I will try not to so care about something or someone that who doesn't really belong to me.

Any way.

Nothing can be done right now.

Except for,

MY ASSIGNMENT

Off to start my assignment.

bye~

Still, it hurts

I have not been meeting you since a long time. I had a look into your profile. I saw something that I could never be pleased.

I saw you all wall post. She misses you, you miss her. But why not me? My tear drops as I scroll down to your profile. That used to be mine. I... I...

I really miss you. ='(

I really do not hope our relationship would go this bad. Do you know? It really hurts me a lot.

I...

What you all having now, was used to be mine. But now? None of the part of it I owned.

It seems like, I put all my love, relationship as well as my heart on a tray, and it's just given to you all like that. I left with heartless. I left with memory. I left with the memory that hurts me a lot to company me.

May be I should thank you? As you taught me how to be strong. You taught me not to believe in friendship but you do.

I never thought that, friendship can break like what happened in love.

I never thought that, the hurt that given by friendship is far more worse than what love can give.

I never thought that, the hurt that given by friendship is far more last long than love can.

I thought that, we will last long. But...

Looking at your picture, my tear just unable to stop

What a special 11/11/2011

Today is totally awesome day of me. It's more awesome that I had these things in 11/11/2011...

Today my Academic English have to hand in 1st draft of assignment. Then follow by those tutorials which I had no time to complete it last night. Follow by the Effective Communication Skill mid-term test. And finally my public speaking presentation. And the time was so damn pack. 9-11am, two continuous tutorial class which really need us to complete the tutorial questions. 11.15-12.15pm is the test already. The Academic English assignment have to hand in before 3.30pm and my presentation start at 2.30pm.

How do you feel? I know I have remove the stonessss from my back!

Public Speaking? How? Hmm... I think, still okay, not bad. =)

Any way, I have gone through my terrible 11/11/2011 on Friday of Week 8. Bye week 8!

Tomorrow replacement class, after that, Ipoh! I will be right back! Wait for me! =D



It's a special day. And I have got his message this early morning at 12.30am. Love too...

This is taken before my war starts.

And I did not sleep well for the past 5 days.

So, please ignore the dark circle there,

I know it's obvious. >.<

Lazy Girl

When is my last post? I forgot. :P

Quite busy actually. since end of September

29-03/10/2011__Have had tournament at Sarawak, Swinburne University. I represent UTAR for my very 1st time. And yet, we got 1st runner up. (We lost to MMU Melaka team)

It's when I started my relationship with him. 30/09/2011_7.30am

Then of course after skipping class, have to catch up a bit, so I was busy doing my practical, tutorial, study and etc. Whole week gone.

14-16/10/2011_Have had UM invitation tournament. This? Unfortunately we have just quarter-finalist. However, I have got so many nice memory with him as well.

After 3 weeks, I have gone home. A lot of things happened. As well as I have had my very 1st date with him which only two of us but no others. We went for Korean cuisine. He likes it a lot. Then we went to walk around. It was a sweet one =)

Let's move on, my 3rd tournament in UTAR.

30/10/2011_Clash of Utarian. It's actually Klang Valley Campuses (inclusive of Petaling Jaya, Setapak and Sungai Long) vs Kampar campus. Well. Our team won in badminton, but the overall champion is Kampar.

*This day is excatly 1 month anniversary for him and me. It will be perfect if the 'coach' let him to play this CoU. But he just be rejected for representing Kampar campus, so, he can't come and that passed our 1st month anniversary.

But it's ok. A quote from him. 'We still have many '1 month', t

hen after that, we still have many '1 year' =)

I found that, my teammates for UTAR badminton are so good and so nice. The elder 'brother' always tells me that they are just like a family. Yes! It is! We are just like a big family with different attitude. We are the best team ever! I love you guys!

And again. Assignments start! ECS(effective communication skill), Marketing, Academic English and Sociology. Every time when I start assignment which I have to sit in front of laptop and browse internet, my shoulder definitely pain! Just as what happen to me right here, right now. Even when you read this as well. PAIN! Can you please leave me? =(

Today early in the morning, I and my friends went to Taman Jaya to draw. It's soft pastel colour scenery drawing. We went to a garden. That is a nice garden which I have noticed them since the 1st time I take LRT from my housing area. I have drawn a nice one, one of my female friend, she has drawn a MASTER PIECE! Damn nice, but yet, she doesn't really satisfied with it. As for me, seriously, not as perfect as hers, but it is my 1st ever nice drawing with COLOUR. (Because every time my colouring skill will spoil my piece of drawing) :P

I still have one more piece of drawing which is glass bottles with colour pencils. I have no glass bottles with me right here, so I have to wait until I get home.

Assignment for Analytical Drawing starts next week. OMG! D:

Keep it up! Don't give up! Do not forget to STUDY for next week sociology and ECS test!

That's all~ bye all.

This is taken at Taman Jaya garden. Public toilet