428, Happy Birthday on 29 April

How to describe?
29 April.

Should be said as
'again'

29 April 2010
I was also saying 'happy birthday' softly.

Today?
A soft 'Happy Birthday'
Tucked with my helplessness, sour, and bitter.
Did you feel that?
I think no.

"The words were cold and flat,
You deserve more than that"---westlife-Home

Wished to have a special status to celebrate your birthday

But I think,
You do have her,right?

I met you in my dream last night.
Should be
'again'

The fifth time you appear in my dream.

The special day,
I can dream of you.

I miss you.
I <3 you

Love Talk

How many times do a person be in a relationship?

4/5 times.

How many times do a person get married?

once in a life time

Therefore,

Those failure in love is always more than a marriage.

Conclusion is,

We were in love,

That's enough.

We were having some memories

that worth for us to remember it for a life time,

then,

The relationship will not be ended in vain

I just a little too far from you

It seems like,

You have got her.

She have got you.

Hey~

I still at behind of you...

DO you notice that?

I think I shouldn't follow any more.

I just simply wanna determine

the feeling that makes me heart beat.

But no one understand!

I hate those words

like

'cheer', 'Let go', 'don't think too much', 'try to forget him'

Right before you deleted all those non-related comments,

I have read all.

You purposely left the 1st comments.

Why?

Because it is my answer.

I wonder if you ever think of me?

For a while? A little bit?

1st moment I entered Facebook.

1st pop-out is your status.

1st of my reaction is I stopped breathing.

=(

What I think of, What I dream of

Yesterday.
I didn't find you.
I didn't sms you,
I didn't chat with you.

I just dare to think about you quietly
I just dare to talk about you softly

When you were online-ing.
I went offline.

It's because I'm hiding from you?
Yes. May be.

I don't wanna
click at your thumbnail,
type some words
and wait for your not-going-to-reply...

And again last night.
I dreamed about you.
It's been the 4th or 5th time I had that.

I miss you... :(

Spec look~

These are also things that I wanna share few days ago...
The spec below isn't mine too.
Borrow from Foo Jen Suan.
My x-partner.
Suit me, right?
Because I'm 'white' enough

This is da look I took the photo with *him(take out the spec)

I love that photo. We look sweet and close.

But not really.I L*** You...

This is the moment when I got the news that you may have girlfriend.

I lost my smile. :(

Interview look

It's been a long time I tried to upload this.
But do not know why,
My phone gone wrong last few days.
I failed to send these images to my comp.
And just now I success.
So quickly I come up here.
Just wanna show you guys that the look for JPA interview.

The cloth isn't mine.
It belongs to my mom's friend.
Named Irene.
Haha... Same as mine...

Here I show you 3/6 picha I took.

This one is after the interview. *exhausted

Before entering the room(panel 5)

I was 1st out of 5


On the way to interview. *nervous

Sorry That I loved you

I remember...
There was a year ago.
The 1st time we met.
We were looking at each other,
more than 3 seconds,
without a word spoke out.

I was not aware that,
the 3 seconds bring me to a special feeling on you.

After all,
I found that
we were facing SPM.
We will not be able to continue.

Thus,
I forget about you slowly by time.
Even I thought that
I didn't love you any more...

But it isn't true~
When I see you again,
The feeling is back.

People are greedy.
With a simple photo
Will expect you to love ...
Wishful thinking is wishful thinking ...
It'll never be.

Many people asked me to let go.

I don't want...
It's been a long time
I have never fell in love in such way.

Rare,
Your presence ...

But want me to let go?
I don't want.
Unwilling to do so perhaps.

If one day,
I do not love any more,
It doesn't mean that I don't love,
But I do not know how to love any more...

The one I love is only you

I just knew that.
You may have girlfriend.

Suddenly,
It got me down down down...

Why every body look this bad?

But nehmind.

I believe I can.
I love you since last year.
I know you have known this.

I hope you do not have girlfriend yet.
I hope you can gimme chance.

I know you as a Taurus.
Will not easily fall in love.

That day you say yes when I begged you to take photo with me.
You so nervous when you worry I will cry.

This make me feels I'm special.
Although it's not really.

But I will force myself to believe...

Can you give us a chance?

I have a special feeling that I never had before.
But it seems like impossible.

I feel like I wanna m***y you

Dream that never come through

I just lost my Junior Circuit 2nd leg.

Woman double semifinal.

I was leading 19-14 in rubber game.

But some thing went wrong.

I lost it! With 21-19.

sincerely.

At that moment(19-14)

I was thinking that.

I will enter final.

My badminton life ended.

With no finalist.

My last Junior Circuit.

heart broken.

And.

My lucky ear ring,

which liked by every one who see that

has just broken.

It accompany me for many tournament.

I got 3 important medals with that.

It broke.

My heart broke.

It means?

My badminton life ended.

No way back.

:"(

2010 MSSD champion

2010 MSSPK champion

2010 Junior Circuit 2nd leg at Perlis. runner up

It broke just now when I wanted to bath.

I do not want :"(

Yuhoo....

Done my interview for JPA.

Quite ok.

better than what I expected.

The points I gave quite good,

until the interviewer kept nodding their head.

My groupmates speak fluent english...

Oh My Gosh.

Shy me~ Talking english in front of'em

And then,

Straight away go court.

Single won~

Next round vs?

==

Eng SC

Always meet her either 1st round or 2nd round.

Really speechless.

Whatever.

Just play.

Nothing is impossible wad~

My place wad~

I host wad~

Just play...

That's all.

interview for JPA

14/4/2011

will be my interview.

So damn busy these few days.

prepare my certificate,

verify my certificate.

preparing the topics may come out during interview.

borrowing formal attire.

Therefore,

simply words here.

Will be back after interview.

(hopefully won't walkover)

I don't want to walkover...

Oh My God!

14 April 2011.

3pm

I have to attend interview for JPA scholarship!

And

14 April 2011.

5.30pm

I'm going to have my single match for circuit 2nd leg.

It will be my last match for circuit!

They clashed!

Hopefully:

My interview will be done excellent and fast.

My match will be delayed and the refree allow to wait for me.

God~

Help me pls.

The last badminton official game for me...

The new study life in oversea(may be) for me...

Last day of teaching

Today is the last day I teach in Yuh Hua Yeah!

I like 3H student very much~

The one called Liew Yit Pui very cute~

Like him very much.

And the assistant monitor

And the one sitting behind.

Cute boys.

There is a girl looks like Jia Mei Ng

Just now listened to their last thank you to me,

Feel like a bit not willing to let go.

But quite tiring leyy.

Better stop.

Some more 6K student.

They wrote card,

And request me for writing my biodata for them.

I didn't do so.

Lazy~

Just leave my name and facebook.

I know I'm not

Just now,

Had a look at your photos.

You with Eki, Deviga and Mikyo.

I realized.

I'm nothing.

I understand.

Why I'm nothing.

At first,

I feel strange to all of your new life outside the school

Suddenly,

I saw a picture which you all in school uniform

I can feel,

My tears were trying to come out from my eyes.

Recalled all those past memories.

Why?

Why this happened to me?

I just simply need a close friend.

Is it impossible to have that?

I wonder.

A month ago

It's been a month ago.

5/3/2011

12am

I was in your house.

Still,

I'm single.

I'm lonely.

I'm thinking,

you should have been looking for other girl?

I'm thinking,

is my little photo is still with you?

Is it still in your drawer?

I understand.

We really would not have any result.

Just I do not understand.

WHY?

I can't stop thinking of you.

Ying.

It's time to stop.

A nice memory with BFF and dear~

Yesterday,

I went to UTAR for registration.

My dear, Yilin

My BFF, Foo

followed.

We took quite a number of photos.

Half day spent.

Then continued to steamboat

Another BFF, Wee Ling joined us.

three of them

As we are the gang who like to take photos.

I brought my DSLR,

had taken sooo many photos

I think,

They are satisfied with my 'job' as camera woman~

We ate until very full

The stupid Wee Ling had taken so many fish-ballssssssssssssss.

3 of them were forced to eat 'em up

haha...

Luckily I escaped.

They had to 1-2-juice by forcing each other to eat.

And I just be the umpire... It was so lucky~

I like this kinda capturing rather than looking at the camera.

This is the meat ballssss. OMG. Feel like want to vomit when looking at this!

Thanks Wee Ling for taking my photo.