stupid dobby! IS YOU!!!

These few days,

I miss you.

Yesterday,

I cried when listening to songs.

Tears drop silently, sadly and quietly.

Just now.

I wrote

"I miss him" at my facebook status.

You saw and replied

"wow wow wow... who o?"

Stupid Dobby! Is you！

I dare not write the comment there.

Stupid Dobby!

Is You!

Because I still love you!!!

Auto-City Shop-in day

Just back from Juru. Last night I went to Auto-City with my mom Bought 6 pieces of clothes. Buy one free one! It only costs RM104 In average, RM17 per clothes. OMG! I got crazy last night!

Here is the one~ OFO

This is for my bro as I have chosen 5 clothes.

So what?

I have got the result.
So what?

I believe that I got 9A now.
Because I understand that it's not as good as what other people think of

When you keep an eye on the sign,
It becomes A+,A,A-
and you will know that
it is actually not very good

Compared the those get full A+
I know that I'm just majority better but slightly under those full As student.
It's not a big deal.

Although my result is much more better than what I thought of,
SO WHAT?

Life still go on in the same mode.

No body will celebrate it
Nothing special will happen
No body will care it
Nothing bonus will be given to you

Any thing will just be the same.

This result,
I have more choices.
I have more chance to get other scholarship.
I have a wide future

But,
My target got out of focus.
Make me getting lost to my future.
I do not know which way I suit to.

I just lost.

23/03/2011

Today is SPM result release day.

Last time, PMR result.
I was late to get it.
The time when I went to get my result,
All my friends had gone.

This time.
I can feel the atmosphere.
Nervous.

We should have taken it at 10am.
But delayed to 11am
At first,
chat with friends.

After that,
I'm getting more and more nervous.
My English teacher and also the SU Peperiksaan，
Mr Kalidass came and congratulated me.

And he said,
I got 9 As.
I can't believe and asked,
Me?
He answered yes!

Until the piece of result was holding in my hand.
I saw. It's 9As
But I can't believe that.

Reporter also have access to me.
Tomorrow, the news will be appear in
Nanyang? Guang Ming? Xin Chew?

My mom?
She is happy.

I?
Feel like I may in a dream.
Unbelievable.

Oops

Unbelievable.

She told me that she read my blog!

She is really a sweet girl

If you read this,
don't hesitate.
It's true!

She is the second girl that
we become friend through a guy.

She doesn't believe that he loves her.
I believe.

May be she knows him well.
I'm not.

God~
Bless her.
To have a good guy to take good care of her,
forever~

What kinda feeling is this?

I'm viewing the profile of the girl that you love the most.

But I wonder,
There was a weird feeling.

Scare?
Pain?
Miss?

Scare.
Because I scare I would get your photos in her profile.

Pain.
Because she is damn sweet and pretty, can feel how much you love her

Miss.
Because I was thinking of you when looking at her photos.

And I can feel
my heartbeat is not beating in a normal rate.
It slows down,
and even stopped.

She is kinda sweet heart

If I were a boy.
I will never let her go.

H.
You must be strong.
I will stand by your side when you need meee.

You loved her

16/3/2011

11.41pm

You told me that you are sorry

You still love her.

You still cannot forget her.

My heart stopped beating for a while.

But I do not know why.

May be is because of

You still love her, but not me.

Or

I understand how it hurts you.

I tried to stand at your side and think about your feeling,

I know it hurts.

And the most important is you cannot do any thing.

Just like how the feeling I have with you.

I thought I can forget you

But when a message was sent from you,

it brings me back to those

hurts behind the sweet memories.

H.

Why?

Why I loved you?

H.

It’s the 6th day I lose him. I miss him so much. He entered my dream last night. We are still couple in the dream.

It just likes what happened last 2 week. A tournament.

That is the 2nd circuit at Perak. He comes. He is my boyfriend at that time. Then, we go to Jusco. A nice Jusco. At there, he is having his burger lunch. I’m full, so I do not order any thing. And there is one of my friend accompany us too, is Eki. After we get the place to sit, she goes to order her lunch.

I sit beside him. He cuddles me. I place my head on his shoulder, it’s warm, and it’s so real like it is not only a dream. I feel safe with him, I turn and look at him. Look into his eyes. His eyes are so attracting.

He looks me in the eyes, and he kisses me. I can feel the bread from his mouth. I push him softly. He cuddles me harder, and kisses me again. I push him and say there are so many people. This appeared in our memory too. That’s when I was at his house at Kedah. He tried to kiss me but I pushed him away as his mom would come out any time and would see what we were doing.

Every thing is so real. Every memory is so clear, just like it just happens a few minutes ago.

I miss him.

Because I loved him.

Haiz...

I have planned to go to Lost World with Penang friends tomorrow.

But,
SO MANY PROBLEMS appear.

1) Foo is out station at Genting
2) Yi Lin is not available
3) Kah Yan is not allowed to play since she has tuition class tomorrow.
4) Zheng Yu is going back to Kuantan
5) Desiree is not allowed to play as MSSD is coming soon
6) Me? No body accompany me

At last?
The trip is cancelled.

I guessed that this trip will end up like this.
It happens~

What can I do?
N.O.T.H.I.N.G

Trying my best

Yesterday after you wanted to break with me,
I have been tolerating the feelings for whole day.

It's hard.

Until the time I entered my bedroom.
I cried.

I miss you.
H.

I will let go you.
But not right how.

These photos were taken when I can feel that you gonna give up.

And when I miss you so much.

The right eye is slightly swollen...

Done

The moment that I hated most has just came into my life.

Just now he sms me right after he came back from school.
At first, I was happy

But,
He wanted to tell me that,
he wanna break.
The reason is LONG DISTANCE

I have known...
Aries,
you can't stand it.

I understand.

After that,
I said ok~
And he sent me a message:
en~but promise me to live well, okay?

What la~Every time I read this,
my tears can't control

So difficult to control this feeling even during in the court.

Any way.
I have no regrets.

I am glad to had you.

I will try to forget the feeling to you
Thank you. I love you.

Worry

May be it's correct that
Cancer is kinda person who will love

They don't bother about what others said
They don't bother about what is gonna happen.

They will love!

And I worry now.

He is Aries.
Aries can't stand LONG DISTANCE RELATIONSHIP

So...
What's gonna happen?
Seems is going to happen soon.

But.
I don't want in such a short moment that we can have

H.
I want this.
Seriously...

Missing some one

Dear,
I really hope to love you.

You have to pay your heart to me ya~
I will take good care of it.
So, you also have to take good care of my heart.

And now,
I give it to you.

You must love me.
I believe we can.
Can you?

Back Form Kedah circuit(02-05/03/2011)

Haiz...
What a bad result?

Single again lost to finalist in 1st round.
Double lost a little bit only...

Why?
Every time such a bad luck~
Or to say, I didn't use the nice draw nicely and wisely.

I want to win
I want to play GP.
God, Help me PLEASE.

The last for me already.
Help for once, that's enough~

Help me for the 2nd circuit. Some more it is at Perak.
I will be try my best ever and God help me this time. Deal!