The man

I think I have found out the reason why did I ever have the attraction towards my ex. Because of his attitude. He is not that kind of shy type. If he wanted to talk to me, he would straight away come to my front, if he wanted to give me something, he would straight away put it in my hand. May be I like the feeling of being 'owned'. He could do whatever because I was his.

Today met a guy. He said he has feeling towards me before we have ever met. I don't really believe in such thing. It's kind of weird isn't it? You see a pretty girl, you add her, you chat with her and you develop feelings toward her? How funny.

He wanted to give me thing. He gave me from my back and said I didn't look at him. I was like: huh? okay.

There is the contrast you see? My ex, he will just put something that he wanted to give me straight on me. Not like this kinda shy-type-guy.

Well. I'm not trying to criticize anyone. But just want to tell the guys out there, don't be shy to do something. Girls will always keep your face in front of many people. If they wanna clarify, they will tell privately.

I found something cute! If you want to be together? You have TO GET HER. It's from the word, to-get-her.

His birthday. 29/4/2013

I would say it is rare I pay effort to wish/ celebrate one's birthday. For me, birthday is a special day to appreciate god that has given such a person to your life. A person who can left so much impact on your life positively that you appreciate you have the person in your life.

Yesterday was 428 birthday. Many people confused that his birthday is on 28 April. No. 428 is the indication of his name. [Only for me]. His birthday is on 29/4/2013

This year is the 4th time I wish you happy birthday since I know you and also XXXXXXX. I text you for the first and second year. Third year, I made a first call between us to you. And this year, I decided to post a photo.

That looks simple. But actually efforts made it.
-I think of how to arrange the photo.
-How to put in creativity
-Asked my friends out to help me
-Purposely went out to printing shop to print
-Posed the night before
-NG and redo
-Edit
-Make up because I meant it
-Rushing all day cause I only have limited time to do that
-Skipped my lunch

I'm satisfied with it. I really hope you like it.
I have thousands of word untold. They have to be kept untold (at least for this moment, for this place). But I know you knew it. Thank you for letting me do that, I will not regret for the rest of my life by doing that. That's the promise.

12/12/12

The last repetitive day I can ever see. 12/12/12. This is nothing special to post about actually. But when I look through instagram, I saw poeple posted about 11/11/11. Then I remember something.

When I saw 11/11/11, I recalled what I was doing. What is the special that had happened? Then I remember.

That was the time, he and I were still doing fine. I remember that was Thursday night, I slept late because Thursday was the day I had badminton session until 11pm (if Im not mistaken). Then I purposely wait in front of my laptop to reach 12am, 11/11/11, the first moment of 11/11/11 and I sent him a facebook message, telling him something normal couples do, telling him 'I love you'. 

And when I was ready to sleep, roughly half an hour later, he texted me, he said 'babe, love ya'... 

The arousal that 11/11/11 gave me is much stronger than 12/12/12 because there was all '1'. And I'm glad that, I get to have someone special, a message that is so special in the special moment. I'm thankful although it has ended long ago. 

I do not feel any uncomfortable. I just wanna tell that, I'm thankful to what I had and what I have now as on him.

I had him with me in that special day, special moment, special message and a special him

What I have now, it's enough. We are like normal friend, calling each others' name, looking to each other, talking to each other, and a sweet smile from each other. I like it. I like it this way. Thankful.

I watched a short film this morning, it's so true.

"Be thankful to what I had was a paradise, and when we are, be thankful too."

Have a look here: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=tSdELZxEnHY&feature=share

Be thankful =)

I'm exhausted and sick

What a busy holiday. Non-stop with assignment. And well, I'm sick.

It's so hard when misunderstanding or 'beh song' happens in group assignment. I try to have all of them feel good with me and I fail.

When all the thing haven't started yet, you should have agreement on everyone. Agreement on what are we doing. But some, they just keep quiet during discussion. Until everything is done, until the last moment, they say that's not the way.

Well. How? Some how we will not do it all over again. Then? Are you trying to say I'm wrong? I did not follow majority? I did not accept what you say? But do you remember what you did when I asked your opinion on that? Do you remember how you answered it? Perhaps, you will think that I did not ask you. But I remember it well! You said you have no comment and wouldn't do extra any more. Did you?

And others just follow. When something happened, group leader should be blamed on. That day, 5 of us in the discussion. One says do not ask him. So, I have convinced another 2 on that. And you have no comment. We seem to agreed on that. Seem to. And now?

That is a 25-pages assignment. I worked from morning until mid-night. I'm fine if you do not appreciate. May be it is not good enough. But do you know how many work have u done on it?

I know it is impolite to post here. But seems the last apology to you is already failed. I tried to be friendly, open but... I really do not know what to say. I'm not angry. I'm just disappointed.

Everything will be fine. I feel sick. Thanks for your time. I just want to 'pour bitter water'. Not to blaming anyone.

3 seconds of Love

This is one of the scene in the Korean drama, 'Love Rain'.
The guy fall in love with the girl in 3 seconds. Love at first sight.

It is how amazing the love in 3 seconds can occur, can last.

The first time I looked into his eyes, he looked into my eyes, for 3 seconds, without a word. I was caught in the 3 seconds. The feeling towards him, lasts. Even after 2 years, the feeling is fresh, is deep.

I made many moves to him. It was peak. It was. But soon, a friend of us told me he has his girl. In his college. This is the 2nd time I get this news. One was 2 years ago. That ended fast.

This one, I guess it will last.

That 3 seconds, lasts forever in my life. It will never be cured, because he will never ever be mine. =''X

Never mind. The feeling, I will keep it properly, deep in my heart. Well. Keep in touch with him, be his best friend. 428.

Short Sem?!

because I had been focus for 2 hours. I can't really focus right now. So take some time to update this blog.

This is the 1st short sem in my life. I have never thought that would be this packed.


Week 1 is new week. Classes are not really packed and filled with knowledge. Just casual
Week 2 is normal week. I attended classes as usual.
Week 3 is SUKIPT tournament. It stands for Sukan Institusi Pengajian Tinggi. Hmm... The result is not satisfying. In fact, a bit disappointing. I think I gotta pay more hardwork on my badminton.
Week 4 is assignment-rushing week. I have not really stop working on the assignmentsss progress. ( I put 3s because I have 3 assignments). And I also have sit for 3 mid term within a week. What a bravo week.

****** This is until now. ******

Week 5 is unofficial mid-sem break. Deepavali and other public holiday. (This is for me to rush my assignment, because
Week 6 is the submission of all the 3 assignmentsss weeks. Indeed, 4 assignmentssss.
Week 7 last official class week

then end of the short sem. I predict. So fast. I feel like I just started my new semester and it's going to end.

okay... I want to share some photos with you.

a cute her

The first time we get to know each other, feel like very close. I miss you. 

nice person, good player, humble girl.

I gotta get married soon!!! XP

Making up. Halloween make up technique.

my mom shocked when she saw this. Credit to Shiang Ling. =D This is for video shooting for assignment.

This is from the cute 38 po. Like this and her. She can always make me smile like  the doll from SUKIPT

The Hug

Not to be misunderstood, the post title is just something pop out on my mind when I was thinking the title for this.

I was on the way back to KL here for this coming Saturday tournament. It was Wednesday night. I got down from train and went to wash room. When I was heading to LRT station, I saw my friend, Liang Bin.

I ran near to him and pushed him from the back. When he saw me, he was surprise, happy, excited. He opened his arm and we gave each other a friendly hug. Hug does warm people. Sometimes hug means more than a kiss.

Me, I don't really believe in friendship like I always do. But my foundation friends were the best I could say. We just true friends. We share ideas, secrets, jokes and many more. We do not talk bad about anyone of us in our gang of 10.

I miss how we used to be in foundation. Since second semester of foundation, 10 of us were always together.

-There were always the places that we all 10 sat around in lecturer class
-We went to Mamak for our lunch together everyday
-We have almost 95% of the same time table
-We plan our time table for the following semester for 10 of us
-We will have poker card or monopoly card to play during the break
-We will bring snacks to share
-We will have our Friday-Sure-Jam-So-Dinner after 6pm class
-We will stay at McDonald for more than 1 hours just to talk and laugh and play
-We will post for each other for those who enrols in drawing class
-We will share the sweater if cold
-We will have taller people to hold the umbrella during sunny day or rain

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Each of us have different personality.
(Which one do you think you are?)
-We have the one who always shuffle the cards but not playing
-We have the one who always act cool but actually wanting to laugh
-We have the one who always walk at the back, make sure others are safe
-We have the one who always eats slow
-We have the one who always laugh at Not-So-Funny-Jokes
-We have the one who always comes late
-We have the one who always have many so-called magic to cheat people(epic fail)
-We have the one who always talks loud yet saying wants to be lady
-We have the one who always prepare sweater in his bag but not for himself
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I just love the way we are. Don't you all? I miss the foundation. I miss you all. May God bless you all. Wish you all the best. Hope to meet up in very soon.

Where is the key chain that I give you? Melaka one and the Sarawak one? =)